Missy Christmas, Our Little Angel. You Will be Sooooo Missed, our little Angel Girl....

 

This is precious little Missy, last December in her new coat.  

 

I had just been watching Missy, just the cute way she would kind of walk around and flop down appearing to be looking around, though blind, it looked like she could see something, and oh it was so darling....Just so innocent.  She loved our daughter's dachshund and would just wag her tail when she was around him...It made me wonder if she wasn't used to another little dog around her like that.  She so wanted to be friends with Atticus and he was very sweet to her too.   

Edit 10.2.23 4:50pm.  Missy Christmas was dumped here on our street two days after Christmas in literally freezing weather for those who may not know.  It was so very sad but we were so blessed to have this little angel for the far-too short time we were so blessed to have had this heart-warming angel.

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We lost our little Missy last Friday.  I'm severely grieved in my spirit and heart and everything else.   It's very traumatic and heartbreaking for me.  

She was getting up, falling over and hitting her head on the floor.  She started curling her body over to the side.  We had already taken our elderly little Muffie in to the vet, Wednesday before that for similar symptoms and he became better quickly.  So I really expected for Missy too, to get better quickly.  

 

According to the vet, she had something going on that probably had to do with the way she was treated by her previous owners who dumped her in literally freezing cold weather two days after Christmas.  She had had a hernia on her side already, caused by a very hard kick or hit by a car.   I just don't know who the monsters were who had this little angel. 

 

I'm so disappointed with many things that have happened lately, just sick at heart.  I know I have  blessings and I know God is watching, He's even watching the sparrow but I'm just really sad at heart, I'm mourning and God understands that.   

 

It's easy to get cynical with people even.  almost everyone just starts looking like a fake to us at times...People say crazy things when we lose our pets, they'll even say crazy things using the Bible, can you imagine what God thinks of that?  His heart must break too.

 

Many times we are already wondering who is real anymore for God's sake?!   Who in God's name can sympathize and behave in a caring way instead of having their faces imbedded into their screens!    Who can we find who is not so busy going to church that they can't be the Church?  

 

Last Friday I looked around in the stores, Jem and I.   I was so upset inside the stores and restaurant waiting for the vet to call me the first time around.   I just looked at people, they seemed like zombies.   I tell people my dog is at the vet's not doing well...They don't even know how to respond!  What has become of this culture?!

 

 

We pick Missy up the first time and as we waited their was a youngish lady with very frightened German Shepherd, just precious, he was shaking after his rabies shot.   She had a tshirt on and on the  back of it, it said...Be Strong in the Lord.   I told her I liked her shirt and that I sure needed that message that day.   She acted sheepish and quiet about it although smiling to herself, obviously a nice person but seemed a little socially inept and not too terribly empathetic to maybe what was going on with me and my pet who we were waiting for?   ...And I'm just thinking...Now isn't that something?   She's wearing that shirt and can't even defend the message or give encouragement.  I'm just mentally shaking my head.  Later Jem shared, that yes, he noticed the girl was quiet on that.   

 

The whole world is crazy isn't it at times?   Although, of course there are right things in this world too that I thank the Lord for.

In this case we had to make the agonizing decision to euthanize our little angel, and I even have questions on that, she was suffering and it was Friday evening, we brought her home from the vet's office, he said it didn't look good.   We brought her home and she cried and cried...We brought her back to the vet's seeking help and wisdom.

 

The very young vet, a handsome, fresh-looking black young man, someone who looked like he should be an actor on pbs children's programming, was very sweet, he looked like he was about to cry too.  He had recommended euthanizing but I've learned to never take that advice without looking into things.  I've been told that twice in the past ten years and both times it was not needed, the animal wasn't suffering and both times the pet recovered fully! 

 

I told the young vet the story of the nursing home I used to volunteer at, a middle aged man who had been in a car wreck was there.  He had passed away and was brought back by the paramedics.  He said the first thing he saw in Heaven was all of his dogs from his life who had passed to the other side, there to greet him...  There was no reason for that man to tell me that either, and I've always remembered his testimony of that.   

 

I quietly told the vet through tear filled eyes....

And I believe that.

 

When they gave my angel the first shot to sedate her she jumped and flailed and I was horrified, I looked at the  vet tech with fear, horror and tears and asked Is this normal?   

 

I held my little angel and cried and told her Oh Missy, I'm so sorry we could not help you more... 

 

After they took her to the next room we waited on the bench in the far side of the lobby and I cried so hard, just so very hard.  I did not care who heard me either.

 Pet Loss Grief; the pain explained.  Sarah Hoggan DVM

 

 

I have many questions right now on how things happened.   The lady above is a trauma vet and she explains our feelings so, so, so, so well.  Just.   So.   Well.   

 

Please give the video a listen, it's only 16 minutes.

 

 

 

I must go now, please say a prayer for this gal.   ~Amelia